Greetings to all, today I will speak a little about myself. Some have asked me why don’t I want anymore relationships? I’ve been asked don’t I want any more children? Don’t I want marriage?
To these things here are some (though certainly not all) the answers:
As for relationships and marriage.
The reasons I do not want another relationship or marriage:
1. I have no intention of working a job where I am working for someone else. Self employment is the only acceptable form of employment for me. Presently I am a full time student and unemployed; women only want relationships with men with employment and money. I fully agree with the belief that a person should look for (among other things) financial security in a partner and being I cannot provide financial security to a partner I am not a good prospect for partnering with nor will I get involved in any new relationships until I am financially secure.
“But if any provide not, for his own, and especially for those of his own house, he has denied the faith, and is worse than an infidel.” 1 Timothy 5:8.
2. Even should I have the financial wherewithal it is extremely unlikely that I would enter another relationship for I am a felon. As a felon I am subject to the injustices that follow every felon around for the rest of their lives and I am not willing to enter into a relationship knowing that I shall be bringing this injustice into the relationship.
“And moreover I saw under the sun the place of judgment, that wickedness was there; and the place of righteousness, that iniquity was there.” Ecclesiastes 3:16.
3. Further, I am as yet unable to trust women and knowing that a felon is subject to tighter restrictions under the law and in society this distrust leads to thinking of all the myriad things that an unfaithful partner and her lover can do to be rid of me while keeping what for themselves what is not rightfully theirs.
“And I find more bitter than death the woman, whose heart is snares and nets, and her hands as bands: whoso pleases God shall escape from her; but the sinner shall be taken by her. Behold, this have I found, says the preacher, counting one by one, to find out the account: which yet my soul seeks, but finds not: one man among a thousand have I found; but a woman among all those have I not found.” Ecclesiastes 7:26-28.
As for children.
Reasons why I do not wish to have more children:
1. I had three children which were taken from me from the court and given to my ex-wife who did not want them. She did not want them because the person she was unfaithful to me with told her he did not want children and being she had children he would not marry her. She then gave me physical custody of the children so she could be with her boyfriend. After she signed custody of them over to me she discovered her boyfriend had only been leading her on for once she told him she no longer had custody of the children he moved out of town. The court that took them away from me and gave them back to her said when she signed over custody to me she did not have an attorney therefore they would not allow the contract to stand.
“If you see the oppression of the poor, and violent perverting of judgment and justice in a province, marvel not at the matter: for he that is higher than the highest regards; and there be higher than they.” Ecclesiastes 5:8.
2. If I had financial security to where I was able to care for more children it is highly unlikely that I would have any more of my own, instead I would adopt children for I find it offensive to bring more children into such an unjust world. However, being I am a felon I would probably not be allowed to adopt any children.
“So I returned, and considered all the oppressions that are done under the sun: and behold the tears of such as were oppressed, and they had no comforter; and on the side of their oppressors there was power; but they had no comforter. Wherefore I praised the dead which are already dead more than the living which are yet alive. Yes, better is he than both they, which have not yet been, who has not seen the evil that is done under the sun. Again, I considered all travail, and every right work, that for this a man is envied of his neighbor. This is also vanity and vexation of spirit.” Ecclesiastes 4:1-4.
Well, I shall close here and continue to pray that until next time may love and peace be yours always, amen.
