In the Matters of Evil and LIfe.

Greetings,
I have not written much for some time now but I met someone today who has provided me with inspiration to write at least one more piece even if I do not ever write anything else. So today I am going to provide insight into two areas of my life.
The first area I wish to bring insight into is that of the spiritual realm. Some of you may know some of the writings I have done which have not been published online. I would first like to say that in some of those writings I write phrases such as “I was led to believe”. Whenever anyone encounters such a phrase please do not mistake it for the meaning that what I was led to believe is what I actually believe. People may led others into believing things that are not true but with a little elbow grease (research) one may make one’s own choice on whether or not to believe something someone else may be trying to lead them to believe. I do not believe most of the things others try to lead me to believe unless I can find reason to believe it through research.
He wanted to know what I thought about evil thoughts. His belief was that a person should keep all their thoughts pure and free of evil. I responded by telling him I embrace all thoughts be they good or evil for how, said I can one know if a thought is truly evil unless one examines every aspect of the thought. Many thoughts which may seem evil on the surface may in fact be good or thoughts which may indeed hold evil may instead be used for good.
For example take the inventors of weaponry: Most of the people who have invented weaponry are not evil nor are the weapons they develop evil or dangerous. The evil and/or comes not from the weapon but from the bearer or the weapon as it is in their power to use it for either good or evil. It is not the weapon that makes the user evil or dangerous it is the user that makes the weapon evil or dangerous.
That seems simple enough but the person I met today brought up the matter of evil thoughts and posed a question for which I have had to make up a thought experiment in order to give my readers a deeper understanding of what was posed to me.
Thought experiment: If a spirit revealed to you that they can take living peoples thoughts and put them into the heads of others. But the caveat is that if you think evil thoughts about that person those thoughts you think may be able to harm those you think of and evil thoughts of others can, in turn harm you. However, the spirits will only share thoughts between people who want to share their thoughts with one another. If someone decided they wish to share their thoughts with me and I have already made up my mind that I do not want anyone to share thoughts with (be they good or evil) and I do not want to have my thoughts shared with them yet I find myself being forced to share intolerant thoughts with others and I decide to think evil thoughts about that person in an effort to make them stop sharing their thoughts with me then how is my entertaining evil thoughts about someone who I see as violating (raping) my mind, evil? I see it as a means of defending myself against the invading thoughts of others that I do not wish to share. I do not see the thinking of evil thoughts about that person(s) as evil, it is merely a spiritual weapon of defense.
You decide; Are evil thoughts in such a case truly evil or are such thoughts serving a good purpose much like a firearm repelling an attack from an unwelcomed intruder?
The second thing I wish to speak about today is one of the personal as opposed to professional reasons for which I wish to study and obtain a degree in the field of genetics/biology.
When I was growing up I was in a household in which I was abused by my mother, sisters, next door neighbors’ daughter, ex-wife and other women in my life. Even before I turned the age of 10 I had decided that I wanted to be like Spock (you know the Vulcan in Star Trek). Not because he was an intellectual but because he seemed to be pure because he was untouched and un-phased by the women he came in contact with. When they tried to entice him he simply provided a truthful response as to why he is unable to be enticed.
Well, as I grew up I came to learn that lower forms of animals are also not enticed by the opposite sex unless there were pheromones present which made them enticing to one another. I wish to learn the secrets of what gene groups are needed to prevent enticement. I also know that the pheromones which play a part in the enticing of the opposite sexes in lower animals are not able to do so unless the animals have the ability to smell these pheromones. What if I could find the group of genes responsible for this lack of enticement but remove the ability of the animal to smell the pheromone would the animal never be enticed by the opposite sex? Of course they would not be; Well what if I can duplicate such a process in myself and then prevent myself from entertaining whatever pheromone I created to match the pheromone receptor or better yet never create the pheromone receptor in myself then I too can live and forever be un-enticed by the opposite sex.
Right now even though I am able to be enticed I choose not to be but as I have written in past articles when the thoughts of getting back into a relationship hits me I usually overcome them by visiting porn sites which remind me of what relationships mean (two people doing sick and disgusting thing to hurt each other and although I have been told by some that porn does not represent what relationships are about such are the memories I have of relationships in my marriage and childhood since the age of 5). I want nothing to do with relationships and after watching these videos I no longer with to be in a relationship.
Well I will end here and let my readers contemplate these things. May love and peace be yours always, amen.